"I know - 🖤"

 I know i'm not special. I know I'm not important. I know you will never like me the way I like you. I know I got my hopes up for no reason. I know you will never date I know I've been hardcore friend zoned. I know you don't think about me before you fall asleep. I know nothing about me catches your attention. I know I don't even compare to her in your eyes. know you will always think she's so much better then me. I know that you'll never like me. But I can't get over you, your smile, your eyes. I can't get over your cute as messy hair and your questionable choice in fashion. I love your caring personality and the way that you actually listen to my problems and give me advice. I love that I can come to you about anything and you can come to me with anything. I can't get over how fast my heart beats when I see you look at me. But you only look at her now. We're still amazing friends, but I wanted more then that. I wanted to be the your one and only. The only person on your mind like your the only person on mine. I wanted you  All of you, the secrets, the hugs, the late night FaceTime calls, the forehead kisses. But when you friend zoned me you ripped out my heart, stomped on it and left me hurting, wondering why I wasn't good enough and why I was always the second choice, the back up that nobody looked twice at. You will never know how much you truly mean to me. But that's okay i'm used to it. Hopefully these feelings will just go away because knowing you will never be mine is slowly killing me.